It has been four weeks since I heard the words ‘you have the symptoms of the beginning sages of Parkinson’s disease.’ Since then I do not believe the existing conditions have gotten worse nor have new symptoms appeared. For the last several weeks the thought of Parkinson’s has always been in the back of my mind, like a back burner that is always on, sometimes more intense than others. As a result every pain or muscle twinge or even the inability to remember a name or recall a situation or find an address triggers the though ‘oh, oh is this Parkinson’s?’ How do I shut off that back burner? Like waves thoughts of the unfairness I feel or even the anger at the saliva buildup that exists my mouth at the most inappropriate times surface from time to time. I have experienced several nights when I had difficulty getting a good nights rest although last night I had a really good sleep. I met with another individual who also has the of Parkinson’s, although more advanced than my symptoms. We share our struggles much like a support group. He has seen a nutritionist who recommended several supplements and he graciously purchased a supply of the same supplements for me to take. We tilted our bed by raising the head six inches and I began using an essential oil called Frankincense. Most days I feel good and have the energy I need to get through the day.
Two weeks after I met with the neurologist, on a Thursday I met with the great staff I work with to inform them of the symptoms I was experiencing. I really appreciate their total support and commitment to continue to work as a team. I also met with the church board the following Monday to update them on the neurologists conclusions. They were very supportive and encouraged me to stay on as pastor as planned. The next Sunday my wife and I informed the entire congregation. That was a very difficult time. Many individuals including children who gave me a high five or youth and who offered a hug or handshake helped ease the burden I felt that morning. Since I have been in similar situations I recognize some just did not know what to say so avoided eye contact or any communication with us, Many promised to pray, some very specifically that my ears would remain clear when I spoke. For the last two Sundays my ears have remained clear for both times I spoke each Sunday morning. What a relief! What freedom. Thank you God!